My Journey so far…

“For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You.” -Psalm 139:13-18

 

It is such a wonderful feeling to know that The God of the universe knows me, my thoughts and how I was created. He knows me out of all the 7 billion people present in our world today. He knows everything about me, and because He knows me, He also knows what’s best for me, because He knows my future. This simple fact can be intimidating but also beautiful because I now know that he always wants what’s best for me; and being at Ocean’s Edge School of Worship has shown me that in so many ways.

I may not have an ounce of idea as to what I want to do when I’m finished, but what I do know is that despite how I feel, I know that as long as I walk in His will for me and obeying Him, things will become clearer as I walk on this journey of discovery. A new discovery of myself, and the things that I have been afraid to do for so many years, and having the courage to overcome so many fears that have kept me in bondage for so long. Just being in an environment where I’m constantly challenged, loved, encouraged, humbled, and moved to do things out of my comfort zone. I can’t say every moment was blissful, but so far I am learning to appreciate the sufferings because I am propelled to cling to hope which is in Jesus.

From selfish moments, to selfless moments; I’m thankful for them because I am learning to see beyond me and what I’m capable of doing. From prideful moments, to humble moments; I’m very thankful for because it is in those moments that I realize I have been depending on my weak self to survive, while Jesus has been beckoning for me to let Him love me and guide me and give me the strength to go on. I am still in the process of realizing my worth, and how important it is to find it in Him, and not man. How easy it is to focus on what man will think, and do; when God is just wanting me to accept what he has to offer, and be pleased with Him alone.

It is a process. And I love that through the pain, and through those moments where I just can’t go on that He is still there to help me go through those moments of despair. I’m so thankful for the people He has placed in my life to teach me, to mentor me, to encourage me, and to push me to walk in my purpose. I have never been so loved on in my life, and it is a gift that I don’t want to ever take for granted. Praying that I walk in obedience and go when He tells me to go. I’m excited for the next months to come, and how much God will prune us  according to His plans. Looking forward to share more of my story!

PS: Just wanted to share  few pics of the year so far:

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Orientation Day! 
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Our first time singing with the choir! Loved the unity.
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A bunch of us at the Nick Vujicic evangelism event, where we helped  our church family in sharing the gospel in so many different ways!
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Our first time as a band playing at the Plantation campus! Looking forward to many more opportunities like this.
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Fun times at the CCA dance concert, we loved playing, and we’re humbled that we were given the opportunity to play.
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Before we go out to worship at  our Christmas concert! #NSSN15
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After leading worship at eikon!

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After leading worship at eikon! Girl shot!
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Beautiful moment for us as we declare that Emmanuel, God is with us!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Be Ready in and out of Season……..

“Preach the word!

Be ready in season and out of season.

Convince, rebuke, exhort, with all longsuffering and teaching.” 

2 Timothy 4: 2

Having been in a discipleship course now for the past 12 weeks; i have been urged even more now than ever to be bold and confident in my actions as his daughter. I’ve been really pushed these past few months to get out of my comfort zone. A zone I created to fit my idea of comfort, and safety. I created it, believing that I would never get hurt, or be taken advantage of in any situation….Ever. The idea of our own safe place, is one we believe can protect us, and we are less likely to have all these negative emotions that hinder us. And it is for that reason, why Jesus has called us to be bold in our walk with Him, nothing we do for Christ is ever going to be easy. But will it be worth it? Absolutely Yes!

Now earlier yesterday, I had a to do a teaching sermon on ‘The Gifts of The Holy Spirit’. As a group we had each been given our own topic to study on and prepare for sharing in a group setting. Now, the me last year would have been really scared about speaking in front of any type of crowd whatsoever; but now I can see a different side to what God has been calling me to do. Firstly, stop living in fear, while trying to protect my own comfort. So, I taught on what The Holy Spirit had laid on my heart. The body of Christ working together as a body that is well, and knowing its purpose not only as a group but also individually. I’m not going to say that it was super easy, it really wasn’t. I was worried about not saying the right words, not being clear enough, not presenting it the right way, being boring, having a serious breakdown in front of everybody…..and it was just so much. So many random thoughts flowing through my mind that would have crippled me if the Spirit hadn’t assured me of his strength being perfected in my weakness.

Time and time again, I think I allow my own thoughts to infiltrate my heart, and hinder the growth that God has and wants for me. Being ready in this season for what God has called me to do, is up to me. God equips the called, but it is also up to me to step out in faith and see that step as a gateway for many more beautiful, and awesome things; He wants me, you to be a part of. While speaking in front of a crowd is just one area of my life that I believe God is developing me in, there are other areas that need pruning, and I know if I want to be free from complacency; I have to let God have the control, so that He can work through me. I have to be ready for the plans God has for me, be ready for difficult situations, be ready to let go, be ready to preach His word. There are so many more ways that God desires to use His people, and all he requires of me, of you, is complete submission to Him. All the works He wants to do in me, is more about Him and less about me. I want to be ready for the unplanned…..DO YOU?